Went to the OB for the 4 month visit. Hoping we might get a sneak peek at the confirmation that we were having a boy on the ultrasound.
Tragedy.
Doc couldn't see well, fibroid in the way. Sends me downstairs to the hospital. Hubby meets me there for the better visual.
40 minutes later with 2 radiology techs we learn that there is no heartbeat. None. And a recent occurrence, as the baby measured 16 weeks.
Devastating.
Go home in shock.
Have to wait 9 days for D&E because stupid Catholic hospital had to refer me to a specialist. Then do I learn that they can't take out the fibroid for another 8 weeks or so, and then maybe weeks after that, I can try to get pregnant again.
Had surgery 1 last Thursday.
Trying to stay positive. At least we know the reason the baby didn't make it and it can be remedied before I get pregnant again.
Feel lost. Started going to church. Feel sad for hubby--he was so excited. He doesn't talk about it much but can tell he is just lost. We were so excited. Had to pack up the maternity clothes (which I was already wearing because the fibroid was so big I was sizing for 6mos). Pack up all the great deals we got on baby gear at garage sales.
Keep us in your prayers.
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